BUT I REALLY CAN'T!!! I'M NOT LIKING WHAT I'M FORCED TO DO! (IMAGINE ME DOING AN SMS - ALL CAPS FROM AN IRATE TEXTER!) EVERY NIGHT FEELS LIKE I'M BEING DRAGGED OUT OF BED, AND SHOWERS MAKE ME WONDER IF I'M REALLY SCRUBBING MY BODY WITH HARD,POINTED STONES THE EARTH COULD EVER IMAGINE BEARING! IF ONLY CAP ONE WERE NOT MOVED TO MARIKINA, AND NOW, HSBC'S TURN, THEN NO NEED FOR ME TO ASK FOR TRANSFER, EXCEPT FOR SOME UNEXPECTED SHIT OF COURSE, THE QA, TO NAME ONE...
lahat na yata ng santo natawag ko na. lahat na rin ata ng mura naisigaw ko na. kung may ilang beses na rin akong nagplanong magpasagasa sa loan mower, hindi ko na alam. nabibwisit ako! namumuhi ako sa ginagawa ko ngayon, pero hindi ko kayang talikuran. maraming bagay na tumutulak sa akin para umalis at siya ring humihila pabalik. tuwing papasok ako sa gabi, hindi ko mapigilang mag-senti mode dahil nakakaburyo talaga. hindi ko maialiwanag. para kong unti-unting nauupos. yung feeling na hopeless, yun yung kinaaasaran ko. wala akong magawa. wala akong magawa. pwde bang magmura dito? haaaaaaay! PI!
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